Last Monday

Well, I don't know if I am supposed to write about this..But, I figure out it is something I can share about.


These few weeks are the most down and low days of my life.. Things happened..conflict with collegue, words of rubbish from the boss..how do I know it's rubbish? Because it does not do me any good.It demotivates me.It's all about comparison..What do me justice? My collegue (so-called) shows her true color. When people say bad things about you..you should have get mad right? Okay, just imagine the worst thing that person can say to you.But, not on your face..On the phone talking to someone..but..next to you..talking bad about you..yes next to you..but not on your face..you just sit there and heard..So what does that mean? WHy not say it one on one? I know I supposed to be mad/angry...but, for some reason something in me just make me calm..I am supprised because I am quite hot tempered person when it comes to things like this..but I was so happy..so happy I can see the real thing.. Do not trust anyone at your workplace.No matter how good that person is. I just saying this based on this experience.. not all humans are like this..but just as precaution.

Back at home, I'm thinking :

I want to get out of this pit!! I want to quit. Before that, I thought what am I to do without work, I don't have any new job. But rather than I stay here being treated like ~~!@#, it's better for me to go. No matter how I tried..there will be always someone will not happy with my work. They don't like to see me without any task in hand (that's because I finished the rest earlier)..and boom! I'm labelled as lazy and what? I am not serious about my job? Is that what you are saying? Hey..wake up! I am not as you think..you don't know what am I doing at the backroom..and noww..you want to say me this and that. From there the conflcit started. But despite all that happened, I keep myself calm. I feel stronger than before. I don't care what others might think. The truth will shows. With God's will,for some reason, that person start talking to me again. I never 'boom' her for what she said about me with whoever the person she is talking on the phone with. For what she ever done to me. I don't want to be like her. This time..It's all about work. I only treat every person as in work purpose. Outside, they do not have any power over me.

So to cut long story short... Last Monday.. I hand-in my resignation tender.. I know I am not belong there.So guess what? the boss who always try to bring me down..said that:
1. He puts high hope on me
2. I am doing my work well
3. He can be my friend (???
4. Whatever the !@#% he told me..

Because I know the main reason is that the company do not have enough people.It's obvious with the number of staffs..and he ask me to stay atleast until December..or make it 1 year..hmm..

So now I have to decide..after all I don't want to do sales anymore..I can try but I don't want to think it as an obligation..regardless of what they think of me..I am going to leave that place somehow.

Whatever happens, it is for the experience. I hope I can find better opportunity out there. It's still a long journey for me. For the time being, I have to endure this. Like a close friend of mine once said "Dare to take some risk".