These few days are so......frustrating. Feel like breaking.Unexpected events, job turned down, ridiculousness, unimportant text messages and cold shoulders. My weekly summary.
Just now, I received a message from someone, to ask where and how I am doing, which I am okay with it. As it always have been, it is so expected.It is not because of care but rather the "need" to care to feed some personal expectation, and after that, no reply and I was left hanging or felt ridiculed after I exposed my current position. It's just bitter. It's like, a report. Last time, it's the same thing. Just some flattering words adding to the frustration.Obviously, it's a small thing and not that important. I don't expect anything..but you'll know it when it happened.
What can I do to these external factors? Nothing. It's all up to me. Only I, can control my doings. I just want to let those messages or events be at the moment it happened. I'm trying not to bring it out. It's not about any person, rather it's about how I perceived things. Yes, I feel bitter and teary sometimes. In reality, I still got my chance and opportunity. I can choose to ignore. I know it's all in my head. I am responsible for protecting my core.
p/s: sometimes the best thing to do is to delete.
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