Someone asked me today. Don't you feel bored at home? Since I'm not working at the moment. Well, yes if i have nothing to do. No, if I have something to do. Of course, I do have something to do. I am preparing for my licensing exam next year. A friend will be graduating soon. I realised it has been a year after my graduation. Wow. It feels just like a few months. And I still consider myself as a fresh grad. Because there are many things I haven't explore yet.

Schedule is up for the exam. If I am ready for the 1st quarter next year, I might take it . But yeah, I have to fly over from KK to KL just to take the exam. The only available sits in KK is in May. I am not sure if I want to wait. I don't know. I have to decide the time ,depending on my level of confidence, whether I am prepared for it. Mentally, physically & financially. No matter what, I have to take the exam. I have to be 'tough' within these few months. My biggest challenge right now is to control myself emotionally. I get triggered easily by some situation that could remind me of the past. Humans are like mirrors. They are not the same, but what they reflect makes you see that some of them..just..the same. Maybe I take it too seriously. Or maybe it is the way they are. I cannot change them. The best I can do right now is to control myself. It's not easy and I try my best to move on and focus more on important things.

I guess I just have to accept it. Face it. So I bought myself a hand-grip thing. It's like a V-shape exercise tool like this:



In case if I blow-off, before I start punching my door again I can use this as a substitute. I think it might work ( I hope so ). Besides, it helps to strengthen my muscle. Thanks to Melvin, he successfully convinced me to buy this at RM5. What the heck, I give it a try.