Lately, many bad things happened to me and my family and I'm scared about the future. Yesterday, it rained heavily. Due to the heavy rain, there is a slight landslide just at the back of my house and it ruined the pipes. It such a horrible view. Fortunately, there were some Phillipino workers down the hill that came to help us. We're afraid because the rain seems never ending. And tey are willing to helped eventhough in heavy rains. This is not the first time. It had happened twice a few years back.

As a result, after discussing about how to retain the safety of my place, my parents agreed to do gabions or somekind of bricks retainer. Again, it will affect us financially. Immediately I thought, how am I going to study? How about the cost? For the safety project, it may take around RM10,000 including all appliances and labour. So...how about my plan next year? Of course, I am not bearing the cost. But all things affected. Well, it's obvious that I cannot contribute financially. Ideas? What a thing I know about it? I just feel bad I cannot do something about it. THis made me think. Should I take another job for now? I am just...stucked. I don't know what to do. I feel bad. I cannot stop but think negatively.

It's really hard to stay positive when bad things happened again and again. But I cannot be like this forever. I must focus on the future. The one that I can make perfect. Or atleast better.

"I am going to start all over again and I must change my mind and live the period with fullness. " I've once heard this. I try to hold on to this one.