Got Confidence?

[Warning: This is not me. She is a make-up guru from Youtube.=D I like her message. I just thought I might share it with everyone.]

I think most of us have to hear this.No matter if u are a guy or a girl. I,myself have problems with self-confidence in my life. I am always self-conscious about how I look, how I act towards people, what people think, being hurt by what people say..and it really brings me down.To the point where I don't know what to think about myself anymore. It happens in everyday life.For the past 3 years I start to at least focus on myself and not to worry about peer pressures. I turned down many invitations for "night-outs", I choose to let my hair straight although everyone curled their hair, I stay with my own style while others look really good in the latest fashion, I choose to be patient while everyone has their first car, I choose to stay at home while everyone is attending a party/reunion, I listened to my music while everyone listened to latest music on the radio. and the list goes on.. Of course there are times I try to be like others by doing what everybody is doing, but.....it does not work for me. You know what? I am glad, really glad with what I did. No one in this world, no one, will understands you 100%. So the best thing is not to expect much from others. That is one thing I learn from this 23 years on earth.

I came across this video from Jlovesmac1. I don't really know her but I think she HAVE something to say which makes a good point. Despite of the funny things she mentioned in her videos, I would say she portrayed what a girl thinks of herself, and personally I think one have to have really good self confidence to say something about herself, that is different from others. I hope this new year, and for years to come, I can be truly happy, positive and confident with myself. It is not an easy step but nothing is impossible when you truly believe. I hope it will do the same for you too.

Merry Christmas

May this season brings you comfort and joy. Spend time with love ones or enjoy spending time on yourselves. Just take a break from all your problems and worries. You deserve to have a good time. To all,enjoy this video. =)

Just a little remembrance

As predicted and expected, my two cats had gone forever in this world. Although there are no evidence of Atup's remaining, I am sure that it is the last sight of her on Tuesday that I will ever seen. According to the past experience with my previous cats, when they are sick, they will find their own remedy. I believe that,despite the existence of veterinarian, I am sure animals like cats and dogs can find their own remedy. For example, like eating small amount of grass. Yes, these animals are not herbivores. But I think the grass itself contained herbs which can help animals for their digestion or cure for certain illness. My grandma said that for a grown-up cat, when they are about to die, they will go to a place where no human will find them. If they are going to search for their own 'medicine', they will be gone for few days and came back..Alive. And that is what happened to our previous cats whom I called Ancung and Miow...and Atup. I realised that, when they are about to leave you, they will spend time with you like letting you hold them or be with you 24/7..They find comfort.You will find comfort. That is what I experienced with Topodo. It makes me understand with no doubt. I know every living thing will come back to where it belongs.

I don't think if I ever want to have cats in my house anymore. Just cherished what I have now.The two oranges. I am just thankful for my life has been touched by every pet that I ever had. For those cat and dogs lovers, appreciate your pet when they are still alive. You never know when they will be gone. Take good care of your friend.




Mother & Son


Atup (2006-22 December 2010)


Topodo (May/June 2010-13 December 2010)


Always be missed.

6 months of companionship.. Now you are gone.

My dearest little Topodo had gone from this world. I have done everything I can. I brought him to the clinic..but things get worst. He is unable to eat,move and stand on it's own. It is so hurtful to remember his condition back then. It is so hurtful to see when your dearest little friend is weak, in pain..and what;s worst, I know he need comfort..I know he want to tell something. I carried him in my arms as he in excruciating pain. I know because his voice. So I lay him down. and pray that he will go peacefully. and not be afraid because he will go somewhere better and he will not be in deep pain anymore. I am so devastated and cannot stop crying for days. I even imagined his face in one of my interviews(which i do not put much hope).. I am so sad. I know some people say "Oh..it's just a cat.It has 9 lives" Oh..but for me God created each of the living things with only 1 life. So what are you suggesting? I don't think this person is really concern about me. What they don't understand is that, it has touched your life and provide you with companionship which I think no man can provide. Just with that little heart could touch your life without you realizing it, it makes you happy inside.Who can forget such innocent and silly little thing? He makes me happy. Sometimes, better than people.

Now, another one is getting sick. I just don't know what is the reason. I'm guessing there is a virus evolving around..I don't know if I can face another week of tears. I'm not hoping..I don't want to say more.

All I want to say is..when someone is sad about their pet, it truly means that person is sad. And yes, do not think that he or she is being irrational. That person knows why is she or he reacted that way. Sometimes it cannot be controlled by rational thoughts.. and if you think you don't have better things to say, as in "cat has 9 lives", better don't say anything at all.

Petition for Help or Support

God knows what's in your heart, and when you wish for something or need His help, He provides. I am convinced that all this happened is through my prayers. I don't know if I will make it until the end, but the door for opportunities is opened. Whatever it may turn out, just believe that you will receive.

Prayer To the Holy Spirit

Holy Spirit; you who make me see everything and show me the way to reach my ideal. You who give me the divine gift to forgive and forget the wrong that is done to me and who are in all instances of my life with me. I, in this short dialogue, want to thank you for everything and confirm once more that I never want to be separated from you no matter how great the material desires may be. I want to be with you and my loved ones in your perpetual glory. Amen.

Novena To St. Jude

Holy Saint Jude, apostle and martyr, great in virtue and rich in miracles, near kinsman of Jesus Christ faithful intercessor of all who invoke your special patronage in time of need. To you I have recourse from the depths of my heart, and I humbly beg to whom God has given such great power, to come to my assistance. Help me in my present and urgent petition, in return I promise to make your name known and cause you to be invoked.

Say 3 Our Father, 3 Hail Mary, and 3 Glory Be. Saint Jude, pray for me and all those who invoke your aid.AMEN.

These prayers has never known to be fail. Publication must be promised. You will know when your prayers are answered. Do share with others.

Guidance - Bible Promises Spoken

When I have nothing to say..

This boy says it all. Enjoy.