Goals or dreams? (Or both?)

Have you ever imagine or think how your life will be if you are in different country? Have you ever feel that there is more to life? I mean besides all your goals and daily activity, have you ever dream of something bigger? Something that you want to do before you hit your golden age? I did.

This few months of ‘grace period’ has led me to something more that I never thought I will consider. I have the time to flashback what I have achieved for myself in many aspects. But, something irks me. What if I made other decisions back then? It might be different now. No, I’m not regretting the past. My way of thinking is just different back then. I guess I am not pay attention to myself, what dreams I have. I’m too busy chasing goals and wasting my time crying when I feel down. There must be something more. I think I never thought of it besides to find a job, start a family and all those norm things that seemed like an obligation these days. And while thinking about it, I was scared. I’m scared because I think there must be something different I can do with my life and I might miss it if I don’t keep special attention to it other than my goals. I really want to go to other countries. To make a living in other place different than here. That has always been my dream since I was a little kid. But I have my parents. I know they will against it. And I will be questioned. And I know I don’t have the means to do it right now. It’s seems impossible. For now. You must have adequate resources to live somewhere. The cost of living, the culture, and lifestyle, I must welcome ‘change’. Can I deal with CHANGES? I don’t know. It can be scary. But who knows what this life can offer? I have to learn to be away from home and cope with homesickness. Yet, my goals are just different.

I do want a family; I do want to make my own living here. But, I also have dreams. I want to go away from the norm. I want to experience. I just don’t know where and what to do if I want to do so.

I believe everyone have dreams. Some are lucky to have their dreams come true.
Maybe I was just dreaming. Dreams are unlimited. I can do everything in my dreams and imagination. I like to go ‘away’ for a while from my daily activities and worries. In my dreams, I am not alone. I have my love one with me.

Right now, I don’t mind if it doesn’t come true because I have something more important to do. I have my goals which I am looking forward to.

I just don’t want to miss the best moment that can happen. Whatever or wherever I am. Dream off or dream on?