Things Happen..

For a reason..yes, i truly believe this. There are many things going on in my life that makes me nearly lose hope or react in anger. Indeed, I had lost myself sometimes.It feels like no one understands your problem and you feel like everybody is treating you the same(in a bad way). I really get so pissed of with some people..who like to use you and maybe treat you badly as if you are no better than they are. It hurts you when people take you easily. They answer your question as simple as if you don't know the answer. For example, you are not sure if some documents can be faxed( because you think that some documents are confidential and might be to 'risky' to fax)..I know that it may sound that I over worry about things..but hey, it is better to confirm something before you do a mistake. The answer they give? The basic step of how to fax the document( without looking at your face). What the? Somehow, it affects a person, although they are not complaining(yeah that's why I am writing this)..Sometimes I think let it be a mistake(in your face!)

But some things happened to me as if I am being saved from trouble. For example, I want to an activity.Lets say activity A.However, because of other obligation, I cannot perform activity A. After that, I get dissapointed. Later, you know that those who involve in activity A caught in trouble. But you, you are save because you cannot join activity A. Something like that..save you from gossip, being scolded or etc.. Indeed, He did this to protect me.

Always hoping there will be a little miracle to get me out of this place.This feeling.