Anxiety or numbness?

So It has been 5 days of 'working'..What can I say, it's been a tiring week for me and I have to face this for another 53 days. My place is so far from my home( I cannot mention the place as foe confidential purpose)..well, for me I think it's far(yes, i drive myself) .About 25 km from home(although the place is near my uni, it's not the same when you drive everyday from home). Have to get up early at 5.30am( well, most of the time, i get up at 4am, I don't know why, I think it's an anxiety attack, As a result, I created the natural gothic look). I prepare for my lunch(sometimes my mom) because almost all the restaurant there is 'serve-no-pork', plus, the food is costly. Not to mention, my fuel cost..45 minutes everyday. Half tank in 3 days (now I understand why my father always in bad mood when he is posted in Sepanggar, feel sorry for him) The work? I basically don't prefer. But I have to do what I have to do. Still have many things to learn. But I have difficulty in catching things up( information overload) I don't know what will happen to me during these whole period. I trying to get used to the environment there. Maybe for some,this whole thing is not a big deal, but it is for me thank you. I hope I can be transfered to the nearest branch. Have to wait for the time being (there is hope).

Speaking of anxiety, there are basically two types. Emotional and physical. Emotional anxiety is a result of irrational and excessive fear and worry. The common emotional symptoms include:

1. Feelings of apprehension or dread
2. Trouble concentrating
   
3. Feeling tense and jumpy
4. Anticipating the worst
5. Irritability
6. Restlessness
7. Watching for signs of danger
8. Feeling like your mind's gone blank
   

Physical symptoms anxiety include:

1. Pounding heart
2. Sweating
3. Stomach upset or dizziness
4. Frequent urination or diarrhea
   
5. Shortness or breath
6. Muscle tension
7. Headaches, fatigue & Insomnia
   

After I proof checked myself, most of the time i have emotional anxiety. number 2,3,6 8 always happened to me. As for the latter, no.1,3,6.

Or maybe, it is just a basic feeling of numbness? Definition: spritlessness-the trait of lacking enthusiasm for interest in things generally.


Whatever it is, I hope it will not last.I know it is maybe common to feel this way about something that is new to you or doing things that you do not like. I am very thankful to have friends that understands me and loved ones who supports me all the time. Their love is what keep me going. Thank you God for everything.