If you have legs and arms..will u you get your own food?

So if you have what God had gave you, will you use it to the fullest?Or just use it when you want to..and ask others to do things for you? For example, will you ask a person to buy you food when you know you are not busy and just lazy to walk to the cafe or canteen? You know you can do that because you are superior than the person you ask to do what you SUPPOSED to do it yourself. Okay, so the person who DID things for you have DONE what you ask him to do. However, it is not really correct and up to your expectation. What is your reaction?Whether it will be:

a. Thanks!
b.This is not really what I want..but thanks anyway.(smile)
c. This is not the one..I want the one next to the..(and that person look like he had disappoint you and offer his apology again and again)
d. Get me the correct one.Now.

The thing is, if you know what you want and know where to get it, You can get it yourself. Will you ask a person who does not know what your taste like(obviously he is not YOU) but still do it for your sake and you complained? As simple to get that superior person his own food? Plus, you may not know this person has put extra money to get you your food or travel miles to serve your 'extraordinary' needs. You may give away your arms and legs to those who are handicapped or ask your mum to get your special delicacies from Europe.

Your favourites! but instead you get this..

Maybe what you need is this healthy rich in vitamin C orange guy.He's kinda cute isn't he?Better give your arms and legs so he can buy you food and sacrifice himself to make orange juice especially for you!

Practical Blues

Its been about 9 days of practical training..I have learned many things..although there are a lot more things that I don't know and not easily catch up.I can say the job is quite tough. Well, how many of us can stand when facing with other people? Unless you are pro then it is no problem for you. But what if you don't know what they require form you? This is the thing I have to face when I am posted in the client section. How do I supposed to know what is the best to answer the customer's question or solving their problem. Today I almost do a very big mistake. I tell the wrong information tto the client. Thank God the documents is not process yet and I'm relieve that the client did not mad at me...I feel sorry for him.I am not that great when dealing with people. This is challenging and it is hard for me sometimes to react or say things to people. There may be some trouble along the way ( like doing the wrong calculation or make customer mad)..but i hope I can make through it no matter what mistakes I have done. I don't have to please others all the time. I have done what they want from me.

Things will get better.Just believe.

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Happy Birthday to My Love

Happy Birthday to My dearest who is celebrating his 23rd birthday this year. I am thankful he is born in this world. So today is a day where i want to forget my problems and spend time with my dearest. Although the week has been rough for us, the show must go on. Just hang on to what we believe. Amen.

Anxiety or numbness?

So It has been 5 days of 'working'..What can I say, it's been a tiring week for me and I have to face this for another 53 days. My place is so far from my home( I cannot mention the place as foe confidential purpose)..well, for me I think it's far(yes, i drive myself) .About 25 km from home(although the place is near my uni, it's not the same when you drive everyday from home). Have to get up early at 5.30am( well, most of the time, i get up at 4am, I don't know why, I think it's an anxiety attack, As a result, I created the natural gothic look). I prepare for my lunch(sometimes my mom) because almost all the restaurant there is 'serve-no-pork', plus, the food is costly. Not to mention, my fuel cost..45 minutes everyday. Half tank in 3 days (now I understand why my father always in bad mood when he is posted in Sepanggar, feel sorry for him) The work? I basically don't prefer. But I have to do what I have to do. Still have many things to learn. But I have difficulty in catching things up( information overload) I don't know what will happen to me during these whole period. I trying to get used to the environment there. Maybe for some,this whole thing is not a big deal, but it is for me thank you. I hope I can be transfered to the nearest branch. Have to wait for the time being (there is hope).

Speaking of anxiety, there are basically two types. Emotional and physical. Emotional anxiety is a result of irrational and excessive fear and worry. The common emotional symptoms include:

1. Feelings of apprehension or dread
2. Trouble concentrating
   
3. Feeling tense and jumpy
4. Anticipating the worst
5. Irritability
6. Restlessness
7. Watching for signs of danger
8. Feeling like your mind's gone blank
   

Physical symptoms anxiety include:

1. Pounding heart
2. Sweating
3. Stomach upset or dizziness
4. Frequent urination or diarrhea
   
5. Shortness or breath
6. Muscle tension
7. Headaches, fatigue & Insomnia
   

After I proof checked myself, most of the time i have emotional anxiety. number 2,3,6 8 always happened to me. As for the latter, no.1,3,6.

Or maybe, it is just a basic feeling of numbness? Definition: spritlessness-the trait of lacking enthusiasm for interest in things generally.


Whatever it is, I hope it will not last.I know it is maybe common to feel this way about something that is new to you or doing things that you do not like. I am very thankful to have friends that understands me and loved ones who supports me all the time. Their love is what keep me going. Thank you God for everything.

One's Opinion

At times I hold my tongues for the sake of peace. Am I to scared to open up? Many unimportant things are said and done in daily life. It is pride that makes human beings want to correct people at the slightest opportunity. Sometimes it is too much. It is not a motivation anymore. I believe many people face this kind of situation before. What about comparing you to others? Corrections are unnecessary in many things. People place too much confidence in their own sentiments and opinions.

I do no harm keeping silent in unimportant matters and listening to opinions which do not agree with mine. It takes a deep humility and delicate charity to act this way. Not all advise or correction is positive. The thing is you know who you are and don't let the word of others put you down.

It's All Over

Finally..It's over.My exams are finally over. Feel just like yesterday.I have this weird feeling that i never felt before. Maybe because there is no other exams such as these, again.Unless I want to take another course. Babai paper..hahaha.Sot suda. However,that is not all.Still have practical. Still have another task to do.But that's another story..My feeling about the subjects this sem? I don't knowla..just wait and see. I know it's hard, so i don't put high hope on this one. What i know is that i have done my best. No reason to regret. Right now, looking forward for exciting activities or spend quality time with friends & loved ones. Or maybe just stay at home?At least I have 2 weeks break before the practical. My language is pretty messed up right now. *sigh* Take some time to improve. Mengantuk sudah..So nite2 to whoever is reading this blog. Memang tiada apa2 yg special. Just delivering my thoughts. Will update soon.